First radiation treatment

Yesterday, I experienced my first radiation treatment. I took a long and windy road up to Portland which game me some time to think about what I was about to do and at one point, the fact that I was about to truly lose my fertility by irradiating my ovaries kind've hit me full force. It was a cathartic release of tears and sadness and regret. By the time I arrived at the hospital, though, I had pulled myself together.

First, I had to remove my clothes from the waist down and don a gown (opening in the back, as usual). The two technicians, G and S, helped position me on the hard table. There's a pillow for my head and a specially formed cushion to rest my legs. They lined my tattoo dots up with the red laser beams. Then everyone left and I noticed the classic rock music playing, the big colorful kite attached to the ceiling above, as well as the small crystal sphere, all of which seemed to enhance my feeling of calm. The actual treatment probably took no more than 5-10 minutes. I did not feel anything, except for maybe some warmth in my upper legs, but that might have been my imagination.

Afterwards, I drove home, taking that same windy road. At one point, I found myself alone on the road, surrounded by the trees and fog and light. My radio was off so there was just this sublime scene and silence all around me. I thought it looked like what heaven could be like, and I felt completely peaceful.